“Before I Go” – Moving wisdom about time, endings and moving on

Dr. KalanithiThis is such an emotionally moving, touching and heart-warming story about Dr. Paul Kalanithi, a Stanford Neurosurgeon, who died on Monday, January 11th in a 9 universal year. It is a heartfelt and emotionally told story that cannot but touch the very core of your heart and soul. I ached reading it, yet I understood the very essence of Dr. Kalanithi’s story. I have posted the link at the bottom of this article which was published in the Washington Post in March 2015. Be sure to watch the video he made as well and get out the tissue box. You’ll need it.

In the complexity of the year 2016. the human experience, as I keep saying over and over, will and has shifted our focus on the emotional facets of completion, endings and transition and that includes death and dying. This article is not just about death, but to put into perspective the meaning and experience of what a year of endings and completions represents. And part of that experience IS death and dying and passing over to the other side. So soon into the year, we have all read about the many deaths of people who have made a difference in the world and on this planet in just one week and it has people on edge asking the question “who’s next?” We all know that death is a natural part of the cycle of life. We are are born, and we know that we are going to die – sometime. However, the incidents of deaths this year has hit hard and fast.

However, since 2016 is also the year of the Humanitarian, it’s important to note that Paul Kalanithi was a humanitarian who chose to become a Doctor and help people in that capacity. His life ended so prematurely, but I suspect he will be one of those humanitarians who will come to our aid and the planet from the other side. 

His story is a perfect example, during a 9 Universal year,  of a man who at the prospect of death, took the time to reflect on his life, the meaning of his life and what he did with his life in the remaining time he had left and share his story with us before he died. This is consistent with the 9 vibration. His is a legacy and a testament to someone who lived life fully and embraced his life in the here and now, but with the realization that he faced death earlier than he anticipated. Time was not on his side in the earthly sense.

“Yet one thing cannot be robbed of her futurity: my daughter, Cady. I hope I’ll live long enough that she has some memory of me. Words have a longevity I do not. I had thought I could leave her a series of letters — but what would they really say? I don’t know what this girl will be like when she is 15; I don’t even know if she’ll take to the nickname we’ve given her. There is perhaps only one thing to say to this infant, who is all future, overlapping briefly with me, whose life, barring the improbable, is all but past.

That message is simple: When you come to one of the many moments in life when you must give an account of yourself, provide a ledger of what you have been, and done, and meant to the world, do not, I pray, discount that you filled a dying man’s days with a sated joy, a joy unknown to me in all my prior years, a joy that does not hunger for more and more, but rests, satisfied. In this time, right now, that is an enormous thing.”

RIP Paul. You are now in the ethers of the heavens rubbing elbows with all the other good Samaritans and Humanitarians who have passed over to your side of the Universe. I know you will be looking down upon your wife and daughter and guiding them, but I also know you will be keeping an eye on all of us too. When I look up in the sky, I will look for your star and will duly note how ever so brightly it is lit. I will flash my wand upon your star, then I will feel the Stardust of your soul raining down on me sending good juju and your love. Over and out…


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